I finished
my 100 days of 100-word stories challenge a little over a week ago. At first I felt a bit lost. It seemed strange to not have to plan
out the time to sit down, write the story and post it. It sort of reminded me of the first day
of summer vacation when I was a child.
I would wake up, not to an alarm or my mother’s call, but when I woke
up. As the grogginess of sleep
faded from my mind the realization of no commitments, no obligations, no
schedule other then what I set for myself would take root and I would luxuriate
in the moment of freedom. Only to
be stunned by the very next thought of, okay what am I going to do today?
When I was
a child the answer was easy, spend as much of the day outside as I could. At this point in my life the answer is
a bit more complicated. There are
obligations, responsibilities and goals to achieve, and even though I still
want to spend as much time as possible outside, I have found I work best, as I
suspect most people do, with a routine and a schedule, an expected flow to the
day.
As
children our routines and schedules are imposed on us, teaching us the daily
routine of taking care of ourselves.
As we transition into adulthood we are expected to develop the ability
to generate, plan and execute our own schedules, to take care of business,
otherwise known as being responsible.
And yet it is good on occasion to take time out of our adult lives to
sit back and take stock of where we are at and where we are going.
For the
past week I have spent some time sorting though my goals, both personal and
professional, along with spending time with two of my granddaughters and dog
sitting for my daughter and her husband.
I came to realize I, too often, spend my days floundering without direction,
allowing each day to unfold in an aimless fashion similar to wandering a path
through the woods without thought to where it might lead. There is this vague sense of heading
somewhere, of accomplishing something, but in hindsight there is the realization
of a day spent getting nowhere, of doing nothing.
Time to put an end to the drifting, let’s see
where the wind blows me, days and make something happen. Time to make the commitment to get
things done, to just do it. Climb the mountain, plant the garden, find a better
job, or finish the novel. Set the
goal, make the plan and follow through with it.